the state of things

No one comes here and I rarely use it. Im usually too busy with the boy or dicking around on the computer or felling sorry for myself to even write half a page. But anyway, Life has been draining. And I really have no one to blame but myself on this. So much is going on right now, and I can even feel it because I've turn my emotions off.I cold lose Aspen, Chas is pregnant with someone else child. And she's lying about things, either to me or others.
I never know whats going on anymore and I hate that feeling of no control. But I give control of my life away freely. I Always place my life and happiness in other, either for fear of disappointing or , has in the case of Chas and even Rae to a smaller, that without me they won't have anyone else. But I know I that is just bullshit. I'm afraid of uncertainty, of the unknown. So I say were I'm, even if I unhappy or in pain. Then in order to combat the pain and depression, I shut down emotionaly, be come a shell.
I know all this a still here i am. Alone at night. The baby in his crib, my wife and her boyfriend in their room together. And I tack it, because the only other choices I have or change or Die. And Changes is Hard. And I afraid of Death.

Myspace no more

If you haven't noticed, I no longer have a Myspace account. This is not my doing. It just happened. But what the hell. I rarely used it anyway. But that means that I won't be able to post blogs on Myspace or READ any either. So if you reading this on Facebook: Post blog on Facebook.
I have more to say but to make sure that People understand that, Put Leave a comment. I Leave you with a strip from my favorite webcomic, Moon over June:

I met the Walrus

This is an Amazing piece of Art. John Was and genius and a mad man and this shows it in a beautiful Amation. I Captalized alot For no Reason. Peace.

The update

I tried on three occasions to Post a video blog and fail. So I'm doing it the old fashion way. So here
Aspen Is A Very Smart, Healthy Baby!! YAAY!1! He's been to several Doctors in the last couples of month all fear he have a: A narrow Trachea, deaf in one ear, allergies, etc. But H's Has neither. Just asthma. Witch is a stupid word. It should be spilled azma. But thats all he has. And hhes doing fantastically well.
I've got a bass. It an Ibanez GSR100EX. I hve no idea how to rate Basses, so it sounds good to me. But with in three days of having it, my wrist start hurting for some reason. I'm guessing tendinitis for the repetitive wrist motions that come with cooking and being on the computer too much.
I've been drawing off and on for a bit now. I havn't write in a bit but I a great story bubbling in my head that I'm going to hammer out. I'm also try to curve my sugar, internet and meat. I need to. Thats all. Call me some time. I don't have the number, but I'll post it next.

I leave you with these beautiful works of art promoting Safe Sex.


For Lasses and


For Lads.

I SWEAR I'll update tomorrow!!

Just Because

Sorry foe the lack of blog. Here's something to hold you over..



Girly

Thanks Pat!

Warning: this is the MOST offensive Blog I've posted.

Now, Last night I started a blog about my problem with organized religion. I t was very long and hard to put into words, mainly because I didn't want to offend my friends of faith ( Christen, Islamic, etc). I worked on it until 12 midnight and only got a paragraph in.
Then this morning Chas showed my this:



Thats Pat Condell. And he said everything I wanted to say about religion without trying not to offend. In fact I think that's his point.



here's some more:







These are pretty much a lot of thoughts about Religion. Minus diplomacy. Peace
Pat's Youtube

Ps: If you'd like to leave a comment , do it on Myspace. You can't do it on Blogger w/o an account.