No one comes here and I rarely use it. Im usually too busy with the boy or dicking around on the computer or felling sorry for myself to even write half a page. But anyway, Life has been draining. And I really have no one to blame but myself on this. So much is going on right now, and I can even feel it because I've turn my emotions off.I cold lose Aspen, Chas is pregnant with someone else child. And she's lying about things, either to me or others.
I never know whats going on anymore and I hate that feeling of no control. But I give control of my life away freely. I Always place my life and happiness in other, either for fear of disappointing or , has in the case of Chas and even Rae to a smaller, that without me they won't have anyone else. But I know I that is just bullshit. I'm afraid of uncertainty, of the unknown. So I say were I'm, even if I unhappy or in pain. Then in order to combat the pain and depression, I shut down emotionaly, be come a shell.
I know all this a still here i am. Alone at night. The baby in his crib, my wife and her boyfriend in their room together. And I tack it, because the only other choices I have or change or Die. And Changes is Hard. And I afraid of Death.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Myspace no more
If you haven't noticed, I no longer have a Myspace account. This is not my doing. It just happened. But what the hell. I rarely used it anyway. But that means that I won't be able to post blogs on Myspace or READ any either. So if you reading this on Facebook: Post blog on Facebook.
I have more to say but to make sure that People understand that, Put Leave a comment. I Leave you with a strip from my favorite webcomic, Moon over June:
I have more to say but to make sure that People understand that, Put Leave a comment. I Leave you with a strip from my favorite webcomic, Moon over June:
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
I met the Walrus
This is an Amazing piece of Art. John Was and genius and a mad man and this shows it in a beautiful Amation. I Captalized alot For no Reason. Peace.
Friday, June 27, 2008
The update
I tried on three occasions to Post a video blog and fail. So I'm doing it the old fashion way. So here
Aspen Is A Very Smart, Healthy Baby!! YAAY!1! He's been to several Doctors in the last couples of month all fear he have a: A narrow Trachea, deaf in one ear, allergies, etc. But H's Has neither. Just asthma. Witch is a stupid word. It should be spilled azma. But thats all he has. And hhes doing fantastically well.
I've got a bass. It an Ibanez GSR100EX. I hve no idea how to rate Basses, so it sounds good to me. But with in three days of having it, my wrist start hurting for some reason. I'm guessing tendinitis for the repetitive wrist motions that come with cooking and being on the computer too much.
I've been drawing off and on for a bit now. I havn't write in a bit but I a great story bubbling in my head that I'm going to hammer out. I'm also try to curve my sugar, internet and meat. I need to. Thats all. Call me some time. I don't have the number, but I'll post it next.
I leave you with these beautiful works of art promoting Safe Sex.
For Lasses and
For Lads.
Aspen Is A Very Smart, Healthy Baby!! YAAY!1! He's been to several Doctors in the last couples of month all fear he have a: A narrow Trachea, deaf in one ear, allergies, etc. But H's Has neither. Just asthma. Witch is a stupid word. It should be spilled azma. But thats all he has. And hhes doing fantastically well.
I've got a bass. It an Ibanez GSR100EX. I hve no idea how to rate Basses, so it sounds good to me. But with in three days of having it, my wrist start hurting for some reason. I'm guessing tendinitis for the repetitive wrist motions that come with cooking and being on the computer too much.
I've been drawing off and on for a bit now. I havn't write in a bit but I a great story bubbling in my head that I'm going to hammer out. I'm also try to curve my sugar, internet and meat. I need to. Thats all. Call me some time. I don't have the number, but I'll post it next.
I leave you with these beautiful works of art promoting Safe Sex.
For Lasses and
For Lads.
Friday, May 9, 2008
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Thanks Pat!
Warning: this is the MOST offensive Blog I've posted.
Now, Last night I started a blog about my problem with organized religion. I t was very long and hard to put into words, mainly because I didn't want to offend my friends of faith ( Christen, Islamic, etc). I worked on it until 12 midnight and only got a paragraph in.
Then this morning Chas showed my this:
Thats Pat Condell. And he said everything I wanted to say about religion without trying not to offend. In fact I think that's his point.
here's some more:
These are pretty much a lot of thoughts about Religion. Minus diplomacy. Peace
Pat's Youtube
Ps: If you'd like to leave a comment , do it on Myspace. You can't do it on Blogger w/o an account.
Now, Last night I started a blog about my problem with organized religion. I t was very long and hard to put into words, mainly because I didn't want to offend my friends of faith ( Christen, Islamic, etc). I worked on it until 12 midnight and only got a paragraph in.
Then this morning Chas showed my this:
Thats Pat Condell. And he said everything I wanted to say about religion without trying not to offend. In fact I think that's his point.
here's some more:
These are pretty much a lot of thoughts about Religion. Minus diplomacy. Peace
Pat's Youtube
Ps: If you'd like to leave a comment , do it on Myspace. You can't do it on Blogger w/o an account.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Final Good Byes
I'm crying right now. I just read Chp. 95 of Beck and it left me in tears. I'v been reading this manga for about 2 years and it been the most great. But it all was leading to this. And it was Amazing!
This the last day that Chelsea is in Nashville and has of this moment I haven't been able to say good bye. I know she is spending has much time has she can with everyone she can, so I'm not hurt by it. But I really wish I could tell her good bye. She been such a great presence in my live, and we haven't even lived in the same city for almost 2 years and 2 before that. But I know that if I ever need anybody , I could count on her. She is and always well be one of my best friends. And I really wish I could have said this in person. I Love you and Hope that you'll find what you need in GrungeLand. Good Bye Chelsea King, until are paths cross again.
This the last day that Chelsea is in Nashville and has of this moment I haven't been able to say good bye. I know she is spending has much time has she can with everyone she can, so I'm not hurt by it. But I really wish I could tell her good bye. She been such a great presence in my live, and we haven't even lived in the same city for almost 2 years and 2 before that. But I know that if I ever need anybody , I could count on her. She is and always well be one of my best friends. And I really wish I could have said this in person. I Love you and Hope that you'll find what you need in GrungeLand. Good Bye Chelsea King, until are paths cross again.
Friday, April 18, 2008
The Return
Wow, its been a while since I've updated. It's not from Lack of thing's going on , because a whole lot of stuff is going on. Nor form laziness, which has been a problem in the past. It more because I don't have much time. I'm either working, in the car or helping with the baby(ies).
I'm exaggerating a bit, I do have but that usually my day.Yea, the time between this sentence and the last is a two hour gap of time in which I walk outside with Aspen while talking to my mother and Chi and ate. So the point I was make at the beginning is long past. But the think I thing I was getting at was I feel like time is against me. I have so much I want do during the day, but a great hunk of it (as well has my energy) is eaten away by work. Then at home, I'm to tired to think, so even if I get a little time to draw or write, I can't get any of it on paper. But these are just minor complaints.
My major Complaints: The Deaves.
Really? Your own father?
Mrs Deaves said the physical relationship with her father was like "a sexual relationship with any other man".
For Mr Deaves the sexual relationship was "absolutely fantastic".
Yea... My brain explode in a black rage everytime I think about this. For no reason really this. And the poor kid. God just wow. Man .
Other complaints: Chi' moving. I know why she's doing it and totally support her. I just wish we had more time to hang out. Its like she was always there and soon is not going to be. And I'm not even going to see her off. And thats what really sucks. But She's going to become a better Her, so I ' m really glad she's going hope she grow in the person she was meant to be.
I'm exaggerating a bit, I do have but that usually my day.Yea, the time between this sentence and the last is a two hour gap of time in which I walk outside with Aspen while talking to my mother and Chi and ate. So the point I was make at the beginning is long past. But the think I thing I was getting at was I feel like time is against me. I have so much I want do during the day, but a great hunk of it (as well has my energy) is eaten away by work. Then at home, I'm to tired to think, so even if I get a little time to draw or write, I can't get any of it on paper. But these are just minor complaints.
My major Complaints: The Deaves.
Really? Your own father?
Mrs Deaves said the physical relationship with her father was like "a sexual relationship with any other man".
For Mr Deaves the sexual relationship was "absolutely fantastic".
Yea... My brain explode in a black rage everytime I think about this. For no reason really this. And the poor kid. God just wow. Man .
Other complaints: Chi' moving. I know why she's doing it and totally support her. I just wish we had more time to hang out. Its like she was always there and soon is not going to be. And I'm not even going to see her off. And thats what really sucks. But She's going to become a better Her, so I ' m really glad she's going hope she grow in the person she was meant to be.
Monday, March 3, 2008
Getting old....
And not just me.Everyone. And not in the sense of getting old, but in the sense of Marturing. Example: Chas and I are married. Rae and Nathan are getting married. Leann is half done with college. Brandy is getting married. Che moving to I-tal-e. Hell, even Cris is pregent. Life is moving forward for everyone. I wish I could hear form more of the Old Group to see how life is moving forward in life. But that's another thing about getting old. We grow appart for one another. We have to to really grow. If we stay close, we never grow. But thats not to say we aren't close. I think that we are still really close, I think we are closer then many expected us to be at this point in our lives. And I thank God for that, becuase with out the people in my life, I don't think I'd be alive.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Mice Knights, Spider Men, And VERY Short comics
Its long but funny.
Yesterday I picked up a comic from my box one I'd swore I'd never read again and two hardbound compilations. It goes like this:
Out of all the comics I've gotten this month, Mouse Guard: Fall 1152 is the most enjoyable. Llet talk about why the others (besides wolvie, which belongs to Chas).
Mighty Avengers 9
I was alway cold to this series for three:1}The staring cast are Proregger, ( Pro-Superhuman Registration Act , th law that makes all super human, hero or villain, register with the government and make their Identity public, or go to jail in another dimension.) 2} it really talkie, even for Bendis. 3} too many push backs ( its been out a year, only 9 issues have come out).
But I thought I'd give another shot because its bendis, the man who got me in to comics. And out of 16 pages, only 5 of them were story. The rest were shit blowing up. I'm paying 3 dollar for 16 pages, the lest they could do is give me a descent story til next mouth.
Spider-man wasn't that bad, thought. They just ERASED 20 YEARS OF HISTORY!!! Yea. Its bad enough that they erased the Peters and MJ's marriage because 'Marriage ages superheros', they erase EVERYTHING. So yea, any continuity with the major MU is shot to shit and Spider-man is officially dead to me.
Now the good stuff. GO BUY MOUSE GUARD RIGHT NOW !! Its a high Fantasy story about mice. Not only is it eye-bleedingly cute, the story is super awesome. Its 25 buck well spend my friends.
Yesterday I picked up a comic from my box one I'd swore I'd never read again and two hardbound compilations. It goes like this:
- The Mighty Avengers 9
- Spider-man 544
- Wolverine collection Vol.1
- And
Out of all the comics I've gotten this month, Mouse Guard: Fall 1152 is the most enjoyable. Llet talk about why the others (besides wolvie, which belongs to Chas).Mighty Avengers 9
I was alway cold to this series for three:1}The staring cast are Proregger, ( Pro-Superhuman Registration Act , th law that makes all super human, hero or villain, register with the government and make their Identity public, or go to jail in another dimension.) 2} it really talkie, even for Bendis. 3} too many push backs ( its been out a year, only 9 issues have come out).
But I thought I'd give another shot because its bendis, the man who got me in to comics. And out of 16 pages, only 5 of them were story. The rest were shit blowing up. I'm paying 3 dollar for 16 pages, the lest they could do is give me a descent story til next mouth.
Spider-man wasn't that bad, thought. They just ERASED 20 YEARS OF HISTORY!!! Yea. Its bad enough that they erased the Peters and MJ's marriage because 'Marriage ages superheros', they erase EVERYTHING. So yea, any continuity with the major MU is shot to shit and Spider-man is officially dead to me.
Now the good stuff. GO BUY MOUSE GUARD RIGHT NOW !! Its a high Fantasy story about mice. Not only is it eye-bleedingly cute, the story is super awesome. Its 25 buck well spend my friends.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Shit
Right now. Fucked up things are going happening. Nothing I feel comfortable with posting. Call me.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Captain America ( Fuck Yeah)
Ahh, Yes... Anyway. 2nd post, Yes. Life has been life since my last blog. There alot I nee to write about, but not tonight. My brain is mosh. But tomorrow I'll do and real blog. Also Rae's band(?) is playing Rockettown in march, go see them.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
THe First Post: Comics, Valentines, And INDIAN JONES!!
I guess it kinda fit that my first post is about the New Indian Jones movie, seeing has my pic is of Indie, who gets if name from the strapping archaeologist-slash-Teacher.
I have to say though, that this is a May release seems a bit soon, seeing has Filming started in, what, August? But I guess it doesn't take has much time to make a movie if you don't have those Micheal Mann-iton special F/X. Plus you have actor the likes Ford, Blanchett, Allen, Hurt and LeBeof, you might not need more then six mouths.
Anyhow, lets get started. I could introduce myself.But most of you that are reading this know my or you wouldn't be reading this.So lets just start with updates.
Chas and I are getting married, Woot. Strange how that all work out considering of thing where a year ago. Nothing set yet and thing still need work relationship wise, but nothing that can't be worked out. Some of you are apposed to us getting married, and I get that. I'd ask you guys to try and be happy for us.
I BACK in to Comics!!!! Did that deserve 4 !? Yes. Why? Simply because right now is the best time to get in, or in my case, re-get in to comics. X-men just finished a massive overhaul of the multiple title. New Captain America has suited up (pssst..it's Bucky), Fantastic Four is getting 'revamped' and the Secret Invasion is coming. But not only is good shit happening at Marvel, But DC is at a great entry point has well, with Final Crisis coming. The past two month have been a dry spell for me and comic with moving and massive bills. But now that taxes returns are on their way ( hopefully), I can start again. I even have a pull box now. Here what I've got in:
In real life, Life is both easier and harder then it has been in the last few months. Chas and I FINALLY got our own place, which in stress levels ( i.e. No Olivia {Hallelujah}) and cuts down on time that the kids spend the the car. But now we have real bills. And shit is getting crazy with Jason, Chas' Ex and Jaden's daddy. He won't let Jaden stay the night over because I live here, which is some Super Saiyan 3 bull shit. But has it goes its in the custody agreement. So every morning at anywhere from 9 to 11 am, we get him and at 9 every evening, we take him back. Expect on days Jason has off.We don't see him at all those days. It the biggest pain now, but maybe has time passes, Jason well become easier to dealt with.
I have to say though, that this is a May release seems a bit soon, seeing has Filming started in, what, August? But I guess it doesn't take has much time to make a movie if you don't have those Micheal Mann-iton special F/X. Plus you have actor the likes Ford, Blanchett, Allen, Hurt and LeBeof, you might not need more then six mouths.
Anyhow, lets get started. I could introduce myself.But most of you that are reading this know my or you wouldn't be reading this.So lets just start with updates.
Chas and I are getting married, Woot. Strange how that all work out considering of thing where a year ago. Nothing set yet and thing still need work relationship wise, but nothing that can't be worked out. Some of you are apposed to us getting married, and I get that. I'd ask you guys to try and be happy for us.
I BACK in to Comics!!!! Did that deserve 4 !? Yes. Why? Simply because right now is the best time to get in, or in my case, re-get in to comics. X-men just finished a massive overhaul of the multiple title. New Captain America has suited up (pssst..it's Bucky), Fantastic Four is getting 'revamped' and the Secret Invasion is coming. But not only is good shit happening at Marvel, But DC is at a great entry point has well, with Final Crisis coming. The past two month have been a dry spell for me and comic with moving and massive bills. But now that taxes returns are on their way ( hopefully), I can start again. I even have a pull box now. Here what I've got in:
- New Avengers
- Mighty Avengers
- Captain America
- Daredevil
- Thor
- Uncanny X-men
- Wolverine
- X-force ( Get this Chi)
- Fantastic Four
- Batman
- Green Lantern
- Green Lantern Corps.
In real life, Life is both easier and harder then it has been in the last few months. Chas and I FINALLY got our own place, which in stress levels ( i.e. No Olivia {Hallelujah}) and cuts down on time that the kids spend the the car. But now we have real bills. And shit is getting crazy with Jason, Chas' Ex and Jaden's daddy. He won't let Jaden stay the night over because I live here, which is some Super Saiyan 3 bull shit. But has it goes its in the custody agreement. So every morning at anywhere from 9 to 11 am, we get him and at 9 every evening, we take him back. Expect on days Jason has off.We don't see him at all those days. It the biggest pain now, but maybe has time passes, Jason well become easier to dealt with.
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